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Kicking your own ass May 22, 2012

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Get used to it.

If you plan on writing for a living, you’re going to have to do a lot of this.

I’m in the process of doing it as we speak. It’s easier said than done. Excuses pop up left and right like weeds, and they take root in the same manner too. It’s like the weed poking through the concrete of your brain, saying “well, but then youcould ignore all that and just do this”.

It goes right back to my post about distractions.

Andthen there’s something even worse than distractions: self-doubt.

You know what I’m talking about. “Why am I bothering with this idea right now? If I write it like this it’s just going to sound crappy. I should wait until the idea is fleshed out”.

Let me tell you something, if you wait until it’s fleshed out to write it, you will NEVER get around to doing it! I’m learning that the hard way. And I am literally kicking my ass (yes literally) over it. I’ve wasted all of May pining away after ideas for my June Camp NaNo plot instead of drafting some! And that whole hindsight thing? Yeah, incredibly true. I’m looking back saying “Well, I remember I had an awesome idea on May 12th, but I can’t for the life of me remember what it was. Why didn’t I write it down?” Oh. Right. Because at the time, I deemed it too lame to fathom as a real idea.

Write. Everything. Down.

There is no such thing as a bad idea when you’re a writer. Anything can turn into something worth writing!

So get rid of those ideas that there’s no point. Get rid of all that self-doubt and all of those “what-ifs” and JUMP IN! It’s time. Put on your writing gloves and kick some ass, even if it’s just your own!

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Writing is super imp- OH HEY A BUBBLE :D [Distractions] May 12, 2012

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Ahem, what I was saying before I was uh, detained… Was that writing is an incredibly important part of your every day life, if you plan on being an author.

But more on that another time. Today I’m going to write about distractions.

When you sit down to write, it should be simple to focus on the plot, storyline, characters of that project, right?

Oh, so very wrong.

Personally, it seems that every time I try to do that, I’m making new characters and new stories, getting distracted by music choices or something on the internet. Or, using the current example, drawing entirely new characters for an entirely new story aside from the one I NEED to be focusing on (which, if I’m honest, is a distraction from the novel I need to be editing).

It’s a vicious cycle for me. I can’t help that new ideas pop into my head constantly. I see something and I say “OH it would be so fun to write about that. I know exactly what to do *scribbles endlessly on ideas*”

I’m starting to think I have writer’s A.D.D.

I doubt I’m the only one, but a little confirmation would be appreciated.

Over and out, for the time being.

 

… ooh… Maybe a new story about a military team.

 

NO! STOP THAT!

Being an ass versus Constructive criticism – Time for Battle. May 9, 2012

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“Art is parasitic on life, just as criticism is parasitic on art.” – Harry S. Truman

I had a little, ahem, fun experience this morning. I woke up and went to check out my messages on email, art sites, the dreaded Facebook, etc., and was delighted to see that I had a new comment on one of my art sites! Only to find… that it wasn’t a comment so much as a complete and utter backhand slap to my ego.

I had recently entered a writing contest that required you write less than 500 words, which is (I am willing to admit) not my forte. I’m certainly more of a novel, type of girl. My “short stories” are all at least 50 pages. At least. I’m working on it, all right?

But I decided, hell, I’ll give it a shot!

But the feedback I received was detrimental to my mental, emotional, hell, even physical health (because I choked on my drink when I saw it). My pride was crushed. And I have a lot of pride (I’m a Leo after all). The commenter, a judge on the competition who had spoken with me once before saying that a 500 story weeded out the good writers from the crap ones [I’m probably paraphrasing a little heavily there, but that’s what I got from it], asked if English was my second language because “I try to make allowance for ESL”.

I realize that perhaps he wasn’t trying to attack me (Or maybe he was, in which case, I hope he falls on his own pen and dies), but to ask me that… it left me shocked, and utterly broken in terms of confidence. My mind reeled. For about ten minutes I considered stopping writing altogether.

But then my cousin, my wonderful cousin, piped up. ” I am thinking that with all the arts that the world and competition can be cruel. Keep you’d head up, do what you love, produce what you are proud of and ignore the cruelty. Don’t give up because someone is mean. Ignore them and move on! Hugs to you!”

That was my saving grace. So I’m going to keep writing (honestly, I think it would be harder than that to stop me for more than a few days, but now I can continue on as usual faster). So I’m very thankful. But it made me think,Wow, this is not the only asshole there is going to be.

So it’s time for me, for anyone who wants to write, to prepare for the assholes of the world, as well as the understandable amount of rejections we will face from publishers and the like.

Put on your armor, don your war paint. It’s time for battle.

Dear Life, May 6, 2012

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Why must you constantly get in the way?

Understandably, as I am alive, I must live. However, you continue to shove happenstances and plot twists into my life as though you were the author of my (relatively boring) story. I was content to sit around and write, on the side of looking for jobs. I was content to plan my plots and characters. Hell, I was content to scribble out random ideas!

But no. No, you said. “That kind of life is too dull”. Well, screw you! I like my life perfectly well like this. Stop trying to shove me into uncomfortable situations. It only causes me to get sidetracked from my dreams. ._. Screw you.

Sincerely,

Your annoyed character [Jade]

 

So, let me start by saying that is NOT about one of my characters, this IS about me. T_T I haven’t posted in a little while simply because I got distracted by things. But the author in me is annoyed by what I’ve been doing (even when it was fun), so I just had to write this and get it out of my head.

I, as a person, want, no need to live life differently than the hermit I’ve been portraying. And admittedly, I’ve been doing better. But my author-brain keeps beckoning, “You should have hit 15k by now~”.

I’m starting to believe that I need to make a solid schedule to follow.  D: Bah.